I Hate Birthdays.

So what are your plans for your Birthday? I get asked this question every single year and the answer has been the same for over 10 years, NOTHING! I've not celebrated my birthday for over 10 years what makes this year different?
"Maybe there's a surprise party planned for me that i don't know about?" Well there better not be because i HATE surprise parties. To be honest, it's not that i hate the hassle. It's more like, I hate to realize i ain't got much friends.

I'm so jealous of those people who can make big as parties with many people coming to celebrate it and all those people are their friends. WTH!? Whenever i attempt to plan something like that its always a fail. No matter if i plan it a month before the day or a whole year!
I'd send out like 100 invitations and 50 of them say they can't make it, 30 of them say they maybe and 20 of them say Yes i'm free but then the day before the party or ON THE DAY….

10 of them say they wont be able to make it after all…
the remaining 20 never got back to you or ignore your messages when you ask them again.

Then when the time comes, only 4 people show up when 20 of them said they were gonna come and then you stand there like an idiot because you've just booked a whole restaurant or something.
This has been happening every year since i was 8.

Okay, so i'm not going to lie, there has been 1-2 Birthday Parties that i have had where many people did come. Except…. Most of them i didn't know who the hell they were.
Someone always talks me into making a party because THAT person wants an excuse to party and invite all THEIR friends. That's fine sometimes because if people are happy i am too BUT… i'm like a loser when it comes to the bill. - Everyone runs off.

FUCK, i hate birthdays.

You see, when i was 8 i invited around 30 kids to my house for my birthday. 1 turned up and only 1 called to tell me they were sick. I ended up calling up every single friend i invited to my birthday asking where they were.

I was 8!!! I had a huge BBQ set up, my mother bought 40 goldfish and over 100 UK Pounds worth of Prizes for games! FUCK! I will always remember that day.

For the last 3 years i decided to plan a gathering instead. Just get a bunch of friends who i considered a good friend to just have a few drinks and chill like a normal night out. I still get people calling me on that day that they will not make it no more! I'm like FUCK IT - it's gonna be me and the french waiters this year, they get paid to be there and make me happy and smile and sing to me. LOL

What's funny thing is, you'd think a celebrity has lots of friends and tons of people wanna hang out with you, but it's like i have the lergies or something!

What would be a great birthday for me is when the people i wanted and needed to be there, were there for me.

Anyway Happy Birthday to me.
Heading out for a nice French Dinner and coming home to watch The Rugrats Movie with Popcorn.

PS. Thank you for all the Birthday Messages on Facebook. It really did make me smile today.